TLC’s Stacy London: I Was Anorexic In My 20s 2

What Not To Wear host Stacy London, 43, has revealed she’s suffered from both anorexia and compulsive overeating in the past.

During her early 20s, she says, “I felt like I’d never had a serious boyfriend and I really wanted to be attractive,” she tells the new issue of People, adding her weight went down to 90 pounds. (She’s 5″7).

She was then hospitalized, ate again, but ballooned to 180 pounds.

Stacy details her body struggles in her new book The Truth About Style, out Oct. 2.

“When you can talk about something and shine light on it, you’re obliterating shame,” she says. “And that to me was always the really hard part – to feel so filled with shame and having no recourse to thinking it could get better.”

Now Stacy says she realizes “my value doesn’t simply come from [being thin]. It comes from me and solely from me,” she says. “It took me a long time to recognize that.”